Tammi's World

The Present

This is the end of a series I am doing to try and help raise awareness of Domestic Abuse.

Other posts from this series can be found here:
Explaination
I'm Sorry
Don't Ignore It
Buddy's Hiding Place
Independence Day
No Hollywood Endings

Ok - so I shared a bit of my "other life". I guess, since there are several out there that have asked, that don't know, I'll give you a bit of the "Where They Are Now" stuff.

My boys - they're good. They have homes, jobs and families. They don't speak to me and that's alright. I get it. I was the 1st Stepmom, and that period in all our lives was ugly. Sometimes it's just easier to block it out.

My ex - he's still in the same area he was when I left. Shortly after our divorce, he married his long time girl friend (who I knew nothing about) and they are living on the farm he built. Life has been hard on him, and I'm alright with that. And I know, some day, he'll have to answer for all that he did. Plus - from what I hear, the guilt is kinda kickin' his ass. I'm alright with that too. He is still not drinking, which is quite frankly, amazing. We don't talk. We don't see each other. We have ZERO contact. It's better for everyone that way.

Me - I moved to Florida during the divorce. A fresh start as it were. I've struggled with some of the emotional stuff, but it's all a part of the process. Moving back up north was tough, but it's turned out to be a very good thing. I'm good. I'm really good. And every day it gets just that much better.

The divorce itself was not quick or easy. It got pretty damned ugly as a matter of fact. But that wasn't unexpected, not at all. I made some Terrible for Tammi decisions, but all I could focus on was getting it over with. Moving on. Closing that chapter. I'd have done anything to make that happen.

That was another lifetime to me. I was a different person, and I think, so were they. Not a fairy tale ending, by any stretch of the imagination, but one that is acceptable to me.

When I started blogging I was very open about the fact that I would blog a bit about everything that caught my attention. And I stated outright that I had been in an abusive situation and that Domestic Abuse was something I would NOT shy away from talking about. It's a hot button for me.

And I'm proud of the fact that I've kept my word there. But I will tell you this - I will NEVER write about it as I have this past month. Telling the stories is one thing, but writing them out? Yeah, no more. Too hard. Makes things too fresh.

But it was something that needed to be done. And look! We all survived. I survived the reliving of it. You survived reading about it. Now......let's not just move on. Tuck what you've read, learned, felt inside your heart. Be more aware. Be more understanding. Don't make me feel like this has been an exercise in futility.

That would really disappoint me.....

Posted by Tammi at October 18, 2007 05:50 AM | TrackBack