Tammi's World

Yes, ANOTHER Diet Post

And I'm puttin' it in the extended entry so you can easily skip over if you want to. I just need to get this thought process documented and out of my flippin' head!

So.....my Miracle Burn pills are not so miraculous. Oh, I've not put any weight ON since I started taking them, but I am willing to bet I haven't lost any weight either. That means we stop taking them.

Plus, I know there's no such thing as an "easy weight loss" system. I know that because for most of my life, up until the last couple of years, I've made dieting/weight management my obsession. Seriously, I may do it wrong, but I DO know the right way.

It's just too hard, if I'm honest.

Well...that's all about to change.

You see, I bought a scale. The first one I have ever owned in my adult life. Now, that might seem weird to some folks, but up until recently I couldn't even face the scale in the doctor's office. EVEN when I was at, what I consider my optimum weight, I couldn't know it.

But I've been really evaluating myself and my self image and realized I can handle it now. I'm 45 years old. I know my age, I KNOW I won't ever be what I was at 30. Or even 35. And I'm seriously ok with that. I'm not bad for my age, but that's not what I want. I HATE it when some one tells me I look good for 45. Can't I just look good? Why the qualifier?

And yes - I'm fully aware that thought process makes me officially "Vain". I am. My looks matter to me. Especially for my job. Let me tell you......try getting someone's respect when you look like crap. First impressions matter, and I base a lot of my success at work on that. Plus, if you look like you're frazzled and a mess, that gives the impression that you are struggling. No one wants to buy from someone that is "struggling". Successful sales people make more money, which in turn makes them more successful and they, in turn make even MORE money.

See how that works?

So any way.......I bought the scale. And saw a number I never thought in my lifetime I would see when *I* stood on it.

Yeah......not so happy, let me just tell you.

BUT - I didn't panic. Nope. I just thought about it for a couple of days and put together a plan of action. One that makes sense, is healthy and has a good success rate.

I joined Weight Watchers on-line. With my schedule I cannot go to meetings. Won't happen and I refuse to set myself up to fail. But the on-line version gives me the tools I need to make the right choices. AND to plan. I spent last evening looking at my options for when I have to grab a meal while on the road. It really hit me that I've been making VERY bad choices.

It allows me to plan my exercise. And then I have to keep track. No cheating. Kinda stupid to lie to yourself, isn't it?

So yeah, I'm at it again. My goal is to lose 25 pounds. That's realistic. And healthy. It won't put me back into my size 6 jeans...but again....I'm 45 years old and stand 6'2" tall. I'm thinkin' size 6 is just a bit obsessive. (and so you know...at a size 6 I weighed a whomping 130lbs. Can you say skeletal?)

I'm not going to keep track here on the blog. But I will let you know when I hit those milestones.

Like I said in the beginning...I'm at it again. But this time no tricks or easy answers. Just changes and planning.

I think I can handle that.

Posted by Tammi at February 16, 2008 09:32 AM | TrackBack