Tammi's World

Turning Tables

Don't know if this truly qualifies as "good news" but it's a life lesson learned. And I, personally think it's a good thing. So......

Sometime the tables get turned on us. Sometimes we must allow others to do for us when we just can't do for ourselves. Sometimes we have to allow others to care, to worry. It's a part of life. It's a part of being alive.

I'm trying very hard to stay positive, focused and get things accomplished. It's the only way I know how to deal with things. Well, there is the whole getting drunk for a month of Sunday's thing, but then you sober up, shit's still shit AND you feel like crap on top of it. Yeah, so the positive, focused yada yada is all I got.

But - I couldn't do it without support. And taking that support is hard. Very hard.

I'm the kind of person that if someone is in trouble I help. If I can't give money I do something else. Anything else. I'm a doer. Period.

So are my most of my friends. We types kinda flock together, ya know.

So it's very hard for me to hear my friends tell me that they feel bad cause they can't help. Hey. Unless you want to employ me at about $60,000 a year, you CAN'T fix it. Just being that voice on the other end of the phone is a life saver. Just stoppin' by to visit and give me a hug works miracles.

But here's the catch. I can't ask. Hell. I don't even like to tell. But - if I don't I know that month of Sunday's thing will happen sooner or later. So I've finally learned to put down my pride and just say - Hey - can I talk to you for a minute.

It's tough when life turns the tables on us. It's hard on the pride, and I know for me, I'm not sure how to react. But I'm learning. It's been a humbling week. And the funny thing is just yesterday I told a friend of mine that you have to let your friends care. You have to. It's the price of friendship. It's a two way street.

And you know what? The good friends are worth the price. They really are.

Posted by Tammi at March 11, 2006 09:20 AM