January 17, 2006

Deep Thoughts on a Tuesday

Do you take chances? Really - do you? Or do you live your life in the safe zone. Oh - push it every now and then, but for the most part do what you know and don't rock the boat.

And if you don't take chances are you happy? Are you content? Are you satisfied?

I've always been a risk taker. For some reason I have real issues trying to think INSIDE the box. Often times I miss the most obvious answers/solutions because I just simply can't think in straight line terms. I've often been accused of making things more complicated than they need to be - and it's true. Not because I want to - it's just the way my mind works.

For years I've complained because I always wanted more. I was never content. Oh - I am not referring to "material goods". Hell - I like toys and schtuff as much as the next person, but they have never been my catalyst, as it were. No - I've always wanted more challenge. More opportunities, more excitement. But not lately. Well, at least not so much. I've become almost timid. Afraid to go after that which "I think I can". I don't want to sacrifice what I already have.

I was discussing this with my cousin this morning. She suggested maybe it was an age thing. Oh The Horror!! Age? I'm actually starting to act my age? Oh, No. That can't be it.

I think it's just plain weariness. I'm tired. I'm tired of being uprooted. I'm tired of never knowing what I'll be doing where next month, let alone next year. I'm tired of always walking up hill.

Oh-I still get that restlessness. I read something or listen to someones stories and think - ohhhh that would ROCK. But then I realize what I would have to give up to do that, and the light just goes out.

I've become that other person. The one that talks about "remember when" and never really dreams about "I wonder if". I've become that person I never understood. Oh, I still think outside the box, in circles it seems. But not in terms of my life. I'm becoming firmly entrenched in the safe zone.

And I'm alright with that most of the time. I'm content. Almost satisfied. Not stagnant (at least not yet) but steady. And I'm ok with that.

But tell me - what about you? Which group do you fall in? Are you happy with that? Have you always been that person or have you morphed? And most of all - are you basically happy with who you are? If you could change, would you? What would you change? And is it worth the sacrifice?

Posted by Tammi at January 17, 2006 06:56 AM

I'm happy, and I live in both worlds. Sometimes I take risks, sometimes I don't. It all depends on what I decide to do at the time.

Posted by: Contagion at January 17, 2006 07:43 AM

Tammi? It's the "age thing".

Posted by: Ogre at January 17, 2006 07:57 AM

I'm with Contagion, I do both but I would have to say I love rocking the boat more than I don't.

I love to piss people off!

Posted by: Machelle at January 17, 2006 08:50 AM

In my day-to-day life, I'm all about comfort & security.

When it comes to things blog, there's excitement & adventure. Two years ago, I would never even have CONSIDERED travelling to meet strangers. Now it's the status quo.

Posted by: Harvey at January 17, 2006 09:10 AM

I crave stability. I am not a risk taker. Look at my profession. However, as I get older, I try to think out of the box more as people in my profession tend to not. I don't think that's healthy either, always having constraints. Seeking alternatives outside the box is not bad.

But risks? No. Not so much.

Posted by: Bou at January 17, 2006 11:21 AM

I'm a risk taker. Don't know why. Just always have been.

Fly by the seat of my pants about 80% of the time

Posted by: BloodSpite at January 17, 2006 02:05 PM

I'm a risk taker. Don't know why. Just always have been.

Fly by the seat of my pants about 80% of the time

Posted by: BloodSpite at January 17, 2006 02:07 PM

For the longest time I was a "take no chances" kind of guy, and truth to tell, I was miserable. Luckily, I found the Elevator job, and it's forced me to take more chances and make decisions that I would normally leave to "superiors". It's allowed a nice balance between "take charge/take a chance" at work, and my normal "overthink it until I talk myself out of it" personal life. It's working good for now, and I'm content with who I am. Thanks for asking! :^)

Posted by: Johnny - Oh at January 17, 2006 04:29 PM

I am extremely conservative at home, I like our life as calm, cool and collected as it can be with a 2 year old. Prefer predictability at home.

Work however is a different story. I take all kinds of risks because I know I can and it'll be ok.

Posted by: ktreva at January 17, 2006 08:55 PM