Tammi's World

It Really Is The Giving Season

I love Christmas time. For a lot of different reasons. Having grown up in a Christian home, the religious aspects are important to me. I celebrate the birth of Christ thankfully.

I love the traditions of Christmas. The goodies, the smell of baking, the lights, the candles. All of it. It's about home and family - two of the most important things in life, as far as I'm concerned.

And I love giving. Love it. Nothing makes me happier than to give someone something that I know they will like and will show them that they matter to me.

That being said, Christmas wasn't lookin' to good for me this year. The timing of the move couldn't have been worse for decorating and baking. Not to mention the money strain. Didn't look like there'd be much gift giving from Tammi's World. I couldn't make anything - first no time. But also - I am not crafty at all. Not. At. All.

Well, for some reason I got lucky. Bonus' came early. I now have been able to purchase a few gifts that I really wanted to buy. I get to put them in pretty bags - I do NOT wrap. I suck at it. And I get to say - I care, in my own special way.

Being able to give even one gift at Christmas makes the holiday for me. I knew it would be different this year. I knew I had to par back. I wasn't looking forward to that at all. BUT - I didn't realize it would be as bad as it was. It was really bringing me down. No tree. No Nativity Scene. No cookies. No breads. And most of all even if the tree had been up - there would have been nothing under it - that would have broken my heart.

But it's fine now. Oh, still not what I'd like. But you know, I had to realize it will never been like it was again. And that's not necessarily a bad thing. I went a bit overboard. But when you have all this love trapped inside - and the opportunity to share is there - not being able to take advantage of it is tough. It steals a bit of the soul, I think.

Posted by Tammi at December 21, 2005 06:35 AM