Tammi's World

Houston, we have a problem

I've mentioned a time or two that I have a temper. I do. And it's not pretty.

HOWEVER....I've learned to have iron control over it. That control may slip every now and again, but very rarely in a complete manner and again, that slip is very rare.

Last night, after reading an email I was so furious I threw a coffee mug up against the wall and broke it.

Smashed it. Like a flippin' kid having a temper tantrum.

THAT made me even madder than the damned email that ignited the whole thing.

I really hate losing control like that. Very much. Plus....I really like those coffee mugs, damnit!

But what triggered it was an email from my boss. Seems he doesn't think I'm "doing enough". Yes, you read that right. They just extend my territory to CANADA and I manage to get almost every account visited and ready to transition to the new line and....I'm not doing enough.

He gets all his reports right on time, but I'm not doing enough.

He calls for info I have it at the tip of my fingers, but I'm not doing enough.

I'm prospecting about 50 accounts ACTIVELY right now, but I'm not doing enough.

Now....I believe in motivation. Actually - I'm pretty damned good at motivating people. Darlin'....if I set my mind to it, I can get water from a rolling rock. Yeah, I know a bit a motivating people.

And pushing, beating around the head and shoulders, belittling is not the way to make anyone do anything. Well, anyone with any self respect that is.

So, after I broke the coffee mug, stormed around the house abit muttering to myself, I sat down and responded to his email. I'll tell you I'm still shaking mad this morning, so I really had not cooled off much when I wrote the response.

I gave the "sit rep" for each account. No excuses, just the facts. I kept it short, yes some would view it as curt, but I didn't mean it that way. No flowers, no fuss, just the cold bare truth.

I'm gonna tell you now, it's not going to be good enough. And that makes me a little sad.

You see......I just don't function well under that kind of pressure. I put enough on myself, I don't need that added to it.

So today it's more phone calls, begging for appointments, sending emails. I'm going to keep doing what I'm doing and pray some big ass customer falls in my lap. And soon.

Cause I've only got 4 more coffee mugs......

Posted by Tammi at February 22, 2008 08:14 AM | TrackBack