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My Valentine Wish

Valentine's Day has never really been a banner day for me, can I tell you? Let's take a brief walk through the halls of my memory, shall we?

In Jr. High they started givin' out carnations. You know - white = I like you, Pink = I'm interested and red = I love you.

Folks. Every year, for 6 years I only got one carnation and it was black. Black. Nice, huh?

I have no idea WHO did it, but I will tell you, it was rather traumatic when you're that age. I had one wish during that time. Just one. All I wanted was a damned white carnation. From anyone - other than my mother. Yeah. Didn't happen.

While I was married......I would have been over the moon if I'd have gotten a card. Just a card. Didn't need flowers or jewelry. Just a card would have made me happy.

Yeah, that didn't happen either.

Since then, I've gotten rather apathetic about Valentine's Day. I try very hard to have NO expectations.

Well, this year that option has been taken away from me. Oh, I made the attempt to make today a little special. I made arrangements to have dinner with a friend, just so we weren't both alone. Yeah, I set the dinner up for Wednesday. I'm so out of it, I didn't even realize I had the wrong day. So much for plan A.

But....back to what I was saying. Today, whether I like it or not, I've got very high expectations. My hopes are pinned on hearing those three words. To the point that I actually had a difficult time sleeping last night.

So....I'm going to be charming. I'm going to seductive. In other words I'm givin' it all I've got.....

Cause today I really need to hear......"Here's my order" more than I can say.

Hope all YOUR Valentine's Day wishes come true!!!!

Posted by Tammi at February 14, 2008 05:58 AM | TrackBack