January 26, 2008

It's a Matter of Choice

As you can imagine, my call the other evening is just making my head spin.

See, it was completely out of the blue. And, I'm not real big on surprises, especially when they are aimed at me. I'm sorta kind of a planner.

But this is a prime example of why I struggle with my profession. It's so......turbulent. Yeah, that's a good word for it.

We've been told, we have to make a pretty huge sales number this year or there is a VERY good chance the company will be.....well, pretty much gone. Now, with the new line, *I* think it's more than possible. But...factor in the economy and it gets a bit "iffy".

Plus, I did just get demoted due to territory alignments. Cut my salary big time. I'm still struggling with that.

New boss. Again. But I hear this guy rocks. I haven't met him yet, as the intro meeting was this past Wednesday, in Columbus and well...I'm in Florida. I'll meet him after the Vegas show. But...New boss. New goals. New expectations.

I know the guy from Trop. Well. We were partners on one of the major accounts and I know how well we work together. We kicked some major Minute Maid ass for years. And had fun doing it.

I love THE Valley. I'm making friends in town, and I have my other friends nearby. I'm comfortable there. I feel safe. And I can afford to live there. Even WITH the cut in pay.

And there is Mama. I'm close enough to get there if she needs me. Easily. That's why I moved north in the first place.

I'm 45 years old. I'm so tired of moving and starting over. Damnit...It's a VERY lonely way to live. I don't make friends all that easily outside of work, and the idea of starting over someplace completely new is.....exhausting. And doing it alone. Again. I cannot express what that thought does to me.....

For years it's been all about my career. Everything has gone on hold so that I could work at something I excel at and make a decent living. EVERYTHING. But.....deep down inside I've just wanted roots. I've wanted to settle down. I've wanted a home and loved ones and well.......you know.

So...what's a girl to do? I'll tell you what this girl is thinking. I've told him No. Not right now. BUT....I didn't shut the door. That would just be stupid.

The other thing I'm doing is praying about it. You see, I've messed up my life several times by getting an idea and making it happen. I'm very good at that. I seem to have a knack for forcing round pegs in square holes. Then....I end up with a mess on my hands. So back before I even moved to Orlando I just stopped doing that. Instead I just prayed and waited for OBVIOUS signs. Not signs that I could twist to say what I wanted, signs that clearly pointed the way.

The good thing about this particular situation is it's an open offer. I don't have to make up my mind right now. Oh right now, I'd get my choice of territories. Down the road, I'll have to take what's open. But I know, I've got a job if/when I want it. So no pressure there.

But damn....this is doin' a number on my mindset. I just can't let it f*ck with my focus. I've got a line to launch, accounts to grow and prospects to open. If I don't do that I may have no choice about taking the other position. And I like having choices......it makes me feel like I'm in control.

Posted by Tammi at January 26, 2008 07:52 AM | TrackBack
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I think it's a good stance to take - and hey, it's nice to have options. Right?

Posted by: Richmond at January 26, 2008 09:07 AM

With the way the economy is going right now I would have jumped ship.

If we do go into a recession or if things even just somewhat worse you need to be in an industry that won't take a huge hit.

Matresses are a luxury item, an item that can be put off.

OJ is something people will buy no matter the economy.

Guess I look at things from a lifetime in the Auto Industry and been through way to many down turns to pass up an opportunity to get into an industry that won't take a huge hit during rough times.

Posted by: Quality Weenie at January 26, 2008 01:15 PM

"This is what I'm gonna need for you to do"...focus on the job in hand, do your best to make it work for YOU!!
Now, I'm not going to start telling you how to run your life, that's something only you can do.

You have friends where you are, you've worked hard to change Paradise from a house to a home.

Through no fault of yours, the present situation is not as good as it could be, but, due to the economy, it's the same for many others.

The problem with this Open Offer as I see it, is how long will it stay open? As you say, at the moment you could choose your territory, but down the road you would have to accept what is still open.

I wish you all the best whichever way you choose.

It's a hard choice and definitely not one I would like to have to make.

Posted by: bx19 at January 26, 2008 01:18 PM

I'm going to go along with bx19.

But, I would not be me, and I would not be your friend, unless I did say the following.

1. To quote you, "Instead I just prayed and waited for OBVIOUS signs. Not signs that I could twist to say what I wanted, signs that clearly pointed the way." Talking of D and then hearing from him mere days later seems like a sign to me.

2. You're "stuck" (for lack of a better or more accurate word) in Florida at this time. With family and friends. And gosh, isn't that awfully near where (a) your old stompin' grounds were and (b)near where some of your best Trop days occurred and (c) contrary to your efforts, you are not able to return to Paradise. Hmm, wonder what that could mean?

3. Lets face it, if we don't go into a recession, we're going to be skimming right on the line of one. As QW pointed out, mattresses are a luxury item to purchase. You make due with what you have until things change. OJ is always needed and always purchased. You kicked serious butt for that company and still do!

4. Moving sucks, starting over sucks. But, you've proven that you can do it AND most importantly, that you are not the same person you were when you first moved north.

I see lots of positives about this position, organization and most importantly BOSS. But YOU are the one who has to live this life. But when you are praying about something and to be given signs and shown the way...I'm just saying. Are you saying no out of fear of change (which we all dread) or no because you truly have no regrets about turning it down and know this is the right path?

Love you. Me

Posted by: Lee Ann at January 26, 2008 01:50 PM

I tried to comment on yesterday's post with no luck last night; hopefully this will get through.

[sending wordpress vibes :>]

It's a conundrum and I can certainly see the merits of both scenarios. I believe that you are right to pray about it and to focus for now on the job at hand; I think you could give nothing less than 100% to your employer, anyway. That's just you. ;)

I'd most definitely keep the lines of communication open with the guy.

You are facing an uphill battle with the mattress company. They are trying to turn around a company -in one year- without an advertising budget. Will word of mouth be good enough?

If the guy is willing to let you take your pick of territories right now, I'm guessing there's nothing near your present location?

Thanks again for lunch; I'm much better, I'm sure in no small part to you. {{Hug}}

Posted by: pam at January 26, 2008 02:39 PM

Quite the situation. I agree with Lee Ann and BX. All the signs are there Mom. The only thing I might say wait and see on are the new boss. But sounds like it might still be quite some time away. I have lots of other thoughts, but you're smarter than me and have probably thought of them already. ;-)

Posted by: Navy CPO at January 26, 2008 04:01 PM

Thanks y'all. It was/is a tough decision. And what it all boils down to is not fear. I promise you. And yes, I do regret saying NO. BUT....I'm exhausted. I'm so tired of moving and being alone, and starting over, especially in a strange place. I was lucky with the move up north...so many people around that I know and love and it was hard. It's STILL hard.

Plus...as I weigh everything....I want a home. A family, however that looks. I want a life. I've spent the majority of my adult life working towards......nothing. Seriously, when it all boils down to the end, what you do doesn't matter. How much you sold doesn't matter. The people in your life, the love you've shared, the joy you've experienced, THAT'S what matters.

Right now, that is what I miss more than anything.

And as long as THAT is the overwhelming thought in this decision I'm not going anywhere.

Posted by: Tammi at January 27, 2008 08:44 AM
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