Tammi's World

Trying to Convince Myself...

I'm feeling a little better this morning. Well, JUST a little. Thank y'all for A) your emails and comments of support B) not just telling me to shut the hell up. A special thank you to Lemon Stand and everyone that participated. That was fun!!

I really hate the fact that people have lost their jobs and that *I* might have had something to do with it. Oh, I can promise you that anyone who was "released" was performing at a sub-par level. No one got fired because I waved a magic wand. But still........7 people had to go home and make a whole new plan. I've been fired. It sucks. Plus, it's the holiday season. And the economy is tanking....I could go on and on. Suffice to say, I was feelin' kinda bad about that.

It was all because of a memo I sent out. Well, and the fact that we've been goin' round the same pole since June. SOMETHING had to change, and I know this is business, but man.....I wish it could have come out with a different conclusion.

So this weekend I'll turn the cell phone off. I need to prepare for my meeting on Monday. I need issues with a clear plan for resolution. No whining, no bitching, just cause/effect/options. Something I'm usually pretty good at, an official "This is what I'm gonna need for you to do...." moment as it were.

I just have to move past what happened yesterday. And remind myself, the guilt I'm feeling isn't mine to claim. That part is giving me a bit of trouble right now....