September 10, 2007
Restless
For a while there I was living the life of an old lady. Asleep by 9:30/10:00 and up by 4:30. Mainly that was out of boredom.
Now? Finally falling asleep around midnight but still up by 4:30.
And restless.....man am I restless. I can't sit still, but I can't get any projects done. I just flit around.
Routine. Routine is the answer. I know that as it's always been my copping mechanism. When I'm at my best, I'm living in a rut. And I like it. I LIKE getting up at 6:00, having a couple cups of coffee while watching the morning unfold. I LIKE starting my work day by 7:30, from the comfort of my living room. I LIKE taking an hour to run a few errands and exchange a few pleasantries. I LIKE knowing dinner will be ready at 6:00 and the work day is over.
Now, I know I've chosen a field that is full of emergencies and fires. I know I've chosen a profession that is made up of part bull-shit and part project management. Routine is NOT the norm.
But ohhhh some days I just miss it.
Some days I just don't WANT to call the shots.
Kinda strange to hear from a self proclaimed control freak, isn't it.......
Posted by Tammi at September 10, 2007 04:49 AM | TrackBackEven though you have emergencies and fires you can still have routine for them.
I did and it helped alot to keep myself and the situation under control and get things done faster then trying to fly by the seat of my pants.
Posted by: Quality Weenie at September 10, 2007 08:12 AMLemme get this straight... you're bored and restless but you WANT routine? Isn't that supposed to be the other way around? LOL!
The rut has worked for me as well... it's comfortable there. Hope you get a rut dug soon with this job/house/life... ;)
Posted by: pam at September 10, 2007 04:27 PM