It's time for my mid-day nap. What? It's only 6:30am! I guess we need to remember that mid-day is defined by when your day actually starts.
Today, my day started at 3:00am.
Yipee. Not.
I hate it when my body gets on this schedule. It just makes me crazy. AND, it's my own fault.
You see.....I'm sorta kinda spoiled. I'll admit it (sometimes).
Honestly, this whole movin' a little at a time bit is kicking my ass. I should have remembered that doesn't work so well for me. It's how I did things when I moved from Tampa to Orlando. I end up exhausting myself. In my defence, that was a 2 hour one way drive to take a car load of boxes. This is only 5 minutes. But the bottom line is, it puts a crimp into your day. And this time, I don't have movers. By movers I'm talking not just cartin' the furniture, I'm talking packing. Have I ever mentioned how much I hate to pack? Yeah, well. I do.
And my day is really busy. I have SOOOOO much paperwork to do. And it takes a long time when you can't print anything out, and your computer is on it's last legs. And everything has to be done "from scratch". It'll be so much easier when I've finished the first round, but right now? Yeah, it's takin' forever. Not to mention I need to be out in the stores. I've only hit 3 personally. There are still 14 more buyers to visit and 20 more stores to introduce myself too. Given that each visit is taking up to 3 hours, well.......slow going. That's all I'll say about that right now.
Plus...I've got a lot on my mind. New Job. Big issues in the territory. Things to learn, things to remember. It can be a bit overwhelming.
Add in the fact that my friend has some pretty big things going on. Waiting to hear is hard, being in flux is my personal version of hell. Friends care about friends, so yeah......this has been on my mind too.
It's just a lot going on. Now, I know everyone deals with "overload". Nothing new there. But this is where the "spoiled" part comes in.
My gut instinct? Hire pros to come in here, pack everything and get me over to Paradise. Just flip a switch and done. And I *could* do that, but it wouldn't be the responsible thing to do.
Next? Tell my customers that everything will just take time, and give myself a month to get them their stuff. Yeah, right. That would just make my day to day worse. Wrong prices = accounting issues. I HATE accounting issues. Bad order forms = shipping screw ups. I hate shipping screw ups more than I hate accounting issues. Missing/wrong spec cards in the stores = low sales. I'm trying to double my business this year. Low sales will NOT get me there. Yeah, so I really don't have an option regarding all the paperwork.
I'm doin' fine on getting up to speed with all the terms and styles involved in the new job. I just gotta cut myself some slack there.
And there's not a damn thing I can do about anything else, well except commiserate about how Not Knowing = Hell. THAT I can do easily.
So basically this post has turned into one of those reminders to myself that things are what they are. Everyone hits a wall sometimes, and right now - even with all the good - my face is firmly planted against the bricks. AND I'm tired. Hence the desire for a nap.
But that's not gonna get anything done, or make anything better. So....I'll jump in the shower, finish up the paperwork that is already a day late and wait for them to deliver my washer and dryer this afternoon. I'll finish moving all my clothes and clear out this damned bedroom. I'll continue to make lists of what my customers need and do the best I can to take care of them. It's all I can do. Right now, anyway.
Alright - enough of that. Y'all don't want to read this crap, and I certainly don't need to be wallowin'. Just needed to get this out of my head. Now - back to our regularly scheduled drivel.
Oh, and I closed comments because this is just about the dumbest, most pitiful post I've ever done, and there's really nothing anyone can say that I haven't told myself. I have nothing to complain about - except I'm tired and life gets in the way sometimes. Nothin' new there........
Posted by Tammi at June 14, 2007 06:40 AM | TrackBack