Tammi's World

Gone Too Long

While I was on my little vacation I managed to keep to a schedule, of sorts. I didn't really sleep in at all. Oh, I stayed up a bit later than usual a couple of times and did sneak in a few naps, but for the most part I kept to the usual.

So do you want to explain to me why I'm sitting here this morning feeling like someone kicked me in the head?!? I was in bed early last night. Even snuck in a nap yesterday afternoon. I feel like I haven't slept in a week.

Oh wait. I know. I'm goin' to work. That HAS to be it.

I've commented a couple of times that this has been the weirdest vacation I have ever had. First, it's the longest I have ever taken off work at one time. Well, other than my trip to France a few years ago. But even that wasn't 2 full weeks. And while I didn't get any calls while I was gone that time, it was only because my cell service didn't work there. I came home to a full voicemail box.

But this time? Nothing. I couldn't check emails, and everyone has the cell number. No calls. Nothing. I've never in my entire career been able to step away for that long and not get bothered at least once.

Part of me is lovin' that. And I appreciated it very much while I was gone. But last night, as I was drifting off to sleep I started to panic. Didn't they NEED me? I'm a flippin' manager for cryin' out loud - surely SOMEONE had a question about SOMETHING.

And it's not like we don't have anything going on. We have a huge show in California this month. Hell, it's in just a couple of weeks. Then right after that we have the Toy Show in NYC that has to be coordinated. Not to mention of my 11 reps 8 of them are doin' major presentations. All that and NO ONE felt the need to call me?

I'm kinda freaked out about it. Actually it's more than that. With my history, I'm half afraid that while I was gone they realized they didn't NEED a Divisional Sales Manager and decided to save themselves the salary. Wouldn't be the first time that happened.

Ok, enough of that. I'm sure it's fine. It's just any time you teach an old dog new tricks there is a bit of confusion for the dog. This whole "not living for the job" thing is new to me. I have no doubt I'll walk into a real cluster f*ck and everything will be as chaotic as usual. And THAT will make me feel better.

But damn....I'm thinkin' the drive in this morning will feel like a walk to the gallows.

Posted by Tammi at January 8, 2007 05:55 AM | TrackBack