I am NOT a go-getter. Not at all. I'm one of the biggest procrastinators I know. If it's uncomfortable, or awkward, I can figure out a way to delay dealing with it.
BUT - I ran a couple of errands yesterday and had a very rude awakening. No more stalling. No more avoidance.
There is something I have to do today that just makes my skin crawl. Literally. My stomach clenches, my right eye starts to hurt. I would do just about anything to avoid this.
But - it's one of those times I have to be a grown up. I have to. It's a matter of survival. But ohhhhhh I would rather do ANYTHING than do this.
What could be so horrible? It's stupid really. No big deal to most people. But for me? It brings back bad memories of worse times. It reminds me that I'm not in the happy place I imagine when I'm hangin' out here in The Little Blue Cracker House.
I have to finish the whole process of filing for unemployment. Now, isn't that just the stupidest thing? Letting something like that bother me so much. And I'm usually the first person to tell you - if you need to, do it. But I'm such a hypocrite. And I've found 1,000,000 reasons for not doing it sooner.
Damn I hate this. I really, really do.
Posted by Tammi at April 6, 2006 07:59 AMYou do know that you can do the whole process online now, right?
Posted by: Graumagus at April 6, 2006 10:50 AMI tried that - but it wouldn't let me. Told me I had to come in......
grumble grumble grumble.
Posted by: Tammi at April 6, 2006 10:55 AM