March 28, 2006
Too Quiet
That's it. I have to admit that I have finally completely lost what mind I had left.
I swear to Pete, I don't know what's happening to me.
Yesterday I promised myself I would contact THE company - for a status update. I had sent an email after our interview saying thank you and expressing interest. She had told me to call her if I had any questions or concerns or just couldn't stand the wait anymore. I thought that was very nice.
As I reviewed my notes from the interview I see an area code. That's it. Just an area code. Then I remembered. She had mentioned that calling was tough - as she lived on the phone and it would be tough to get through to her. She said emailing was best as she could read them while on the phone. So I took that to heart, and since I had her number on the caller ID I figured I'd only use that as a last resort.
I never even thought about the fact that numbers eventually fall off the caller ID.
Son. Of. A. Bitch.
So I'm stuck. I only got email. Folks - that is sooooo not like me. Remember? I'm the girl with the flippin' job database for cryin' out loud. Oh, and before you ask - I checked there for the number and found I had only put in the email. I'm nothing if not consistent.
To make matters worse I'm running out of leads. I've blitzed my ass off. There's nothin'. I'm seeing maybe one or two a WEEK. A WEEK!!!!
Arrggggghhhhhhh. It's just a little frustrating right now. I cannot express to you how horrible I am with the unknown. Seriously. I just don't handle it well at all. I'm gonna step out on a limb here and say I might just have a bit of a control issue. Not sure, but the signs are all there.
So today? Today - I got nothin'. I'm going to try and do a little somethin' around the house. Then - I'm thinkin' another movie day at Fritz's. Yesterday was about the longest day/evening I can remember. The not sleepin' part didn't help one bit. A long day followed by a short night is the stuff of nightmares for me. Because you gotta know my first waking thought was "Please, dear Lord - today just CAN'T be as long. PLEASE!!"
So anyway - that's where things stand today. There are good days and bad days. Good weeks and not so good. This one? Overall - yeah, not lookin' so hot at this point.
But it'll be fine. Really. I'm sure. Just damn - please...............something. Anything.
Posted by Tammi at March 28, 2006 08:09 AMIt's tough, the waiting...I've always hated that.
But, things will come through in the end. They always do, somehow.
Be patient, have faith. Everything happens for a reason, IMHO. If this doesn't work out, it's because you were meant for another one.
It's tough to wait, I can't imagine how hard this is on you.
Posted by: Contagion at March 28, 2006 08:34 PMPerhaps I need to loan you a bumper sticker I have hung up in my cube at work:
GONE CRAZY, BACK SOON
Posted by: ktreva at March 30, 2006 08:31 PM