Tammi's World

A Case of Nerves

Well today is my first face to face interview. It's with a pretty big company. It's for a sales position here in the Northern Illinois area. I'm just amazed that they called. It all happened pretty quickly.

I need to be there at 2:00 this afternoon.

I gotta tell you - right now I'm sorta nervous. I wasn't at all, up until this morning. Now? Yeah, nervous fits.

I'm worried about getting the new printer set up correctly so I can print good copies of my resume. Sounds silly I know - but, hey, I never claimed to be overly logical in ALL areas of my life!

I'm not lovin' my hair right now. She cut it a bit shorter, which is fine, won't need another cut for a while. But she layered it. I can't get it to lay correctly. It makes my head look squared off. It's buggin' the hell out of me. And that is never good. If I can get my hair to work, it just gives me an added confidence boost. It's something else I don't have to worry about.

I'm worried about fitting into my suit. In Florida, you interview in corporate wear, but you don't have to be real buttoned down. Chicago? Yeah, whole different story. And I only have one "serious" suit. I've always loved color and wear as much as possible. You can be professional and still show your personality. But for this I need to pull out the conservative navy suit. I'm not 100% sure I can get the skirt on. There's a possibility, but it's not a sure thing. I don't know what I'll do if I can't. Not a lot of options right now.

My stomach's been acting up. I hope to GOTT I don't belch (or worse) during the interview.

The interview is about 1 1/2 hours away. I've looked up the directions and keep going back to read them. But I'm sorta, kinda logistically challenged. What if I get lost?

Will I talk too much? Will I talk enough? Will I say something stupid? Will he appreciate my humor?

What if they make me an offer? I'm still waiting to hear from the company I really want to work for. Plus - if this is commission based I can't take it. Period. How do you say no gracefully? How do you stall and not miss the boat? But then again, what if they don't make an offer? Will I be smart enough to see what I did wrong before the next interview?

All this just keeps rolling in my brain. I am actually shaking right now. How silly is that?

And this is different for me. I've always said the hardest part in this whole process is getting noticed. Getting called. If I can get the interview I can usually get an offer. So why is this kickin' my ass? I don't know. I probably never will understand this.

But today - today I'm nervous.

Posted by Tammi at March 20, 2006 06:41 AM