March 15, 2006
I'm setting myself up....
Guess what.
I'm only human.
Yep, there it is, in black and white. I, Tammi, am only human.
And I really, really want a shot at that job I interviewed for on Monday. Seriously - I really want a shot. Hell - let me just say it. I want the flippin' premier rep position THEY brought to my attention in Florida.
I want it bad.
Do I want to move across country again? Not particularly. I'm exhausted. I've moved so many times, and so many miles in the past two years the idea of packin' and unpackin' again makes me want to vomit.
My guilt over being willing to leave Mama, after all this, is strong. But - everyone has agreed I need to work. I need to make money. And the distance, at this point, probably wouldn't be a bad thing at all.
But the job.....holy shit - it's just me. It's relationship building, it's training, it's travel. It's ME. And it's for a good company. A company that sells a product that I just love. Already. It's a company that hasn't laid anyone of in over 100 years. One Hundred Years!! It's a company that encourages their employees to move around, try different divisions.
And let's not forget location. I'd be back with my cousin and Carmen. Lee Ann and her darling husband. My dear, dear friend Joyce. Hell - there would be BLENDER NIGHT again!!!! And the beaches! Gotta keep that in mind. Hell, I think y'all remember how much I love the water!
But the down side is I wouldn't see Ktreva and Contagion and Clone very often. I'd so miss Harvey and TNT. *Oh - and I didn't even mention Raging Mom! She ROCKS!!!* I've gotten kinda used to hangin' out with T1G. I sure as hell would miss that. AND - this group of midwest bloggers around here rock and I hate the idea of not being able to attend anymore Fritz Fests or the likes.
But the job. Ohhhh the job. To do what I love and make money. No commission. None. Straight salary. No shell games with my earnings, no wondering if I'll make next months bills alright. THAT is huge. (not to mention living in Florida there is no state tax. That's like an added bonus each check!)
So I have to admit. I've got my hopes up. Seriously. I'm trying not to. It's so early in the game. But it's all I can think about. It's more than I ever hoped for. I really thought coming here was IT. All done. Put Florida behind me, and just work a regular job. No frills.
And I can't stop looking. I have to be On My Game for that interview Monday. It's also a great company and looks to be a good opportunity. I keep posting for new things. I have to.
But oh - I want to get a call tellin' me that I've made it to the next round. I want to fly to Atlanta and just knock them off their feet. I want it. I just flat out want it.
And that terrifies me.
Posted by Tammi at March 15, 2006 08:00 AMWell then lets hope you get it.
Posted by: Contagion at March 15, 2006 08:04 AMYeah, you can rest assured that no one there will be angry at you leaving. Sure, they'd love for you to stay, but they'd want you to be successful and happy.
And that's just so easy for me to say, not being near you at either location! :)
Posted by: Ogre at March 15, 2006 08:57 AMYou know if it makes you happy to get this job that I'm 100% for it. There is, however, maybe a little finger-crossing-behind-the-back going on too!
Posted by: Raging Mom at March 15, 2006 09:07 AMFor you to be content, and also happy! That is what we want for you!
Posted by: Oddybobo at March 15, 2006 09:14 AMFollow your heart. And don't bother about Og, he won't miss you at ALL, even though he barely got a chance to MEET you or anything.
Posted by: og at March 15, 2006 10:10 AMI hope I didn't sound like an arse when i asked about your mom.
I really hope you get the job, mainly because for as long as I've known you its evident your not happy where your at.
For lack of a better description: Your solar powered :)
You need the sun the air the beach.
If the opportunity shows, grab it. With both hands.
Posted by: BloodSpite at March 15, 2006 10:51 AMThen that's what I will be hoping for, for you. You are going to knock their socks off!! :)
(And having lived in 11 cities in 7 states over the past 12 years, I hear you about the moving thing. But if it a great opportunity.....)
Posted by: Richmond at March 15, 2006 04:53 PMAtlanta? Hold the damned door a minute. Atlanta? You want' to live in Atlanta? Methinks you're hot for Zonker's mullet. And the caish. If not, maybe you can work a trade out 'tween the two cities involved. Bring him back Norf' and send you back Souf'. Plus a player to be named later... Nobody get's traded straight up anymore.
Good Luck with it. Best wishes.
Posted by: RedNeck at March 15, 2006 05:01 PMI do hope you get it, and then, when we come to Florida to go to Disney with the boys, we can see you!!
Posted by: ktreva at March 15, 2006 09:18 PM