You know it's funny. When I was in Tampa, and first started my blog I LIVED in my office. It was the first place I went when I woke up and there were many times I'd not go do things because I was all into my computer. If I couldn't sleep the first thing I did was get on the computer.
Then I moved to Orlando, and believe it or not it got worse. I had the laptop and the wireless and - well, let's just say it wasn't pretty. I could lay on the couch with the laptop on my belly and just surf away. AND watch the news. I could sit by the pool and blog. I would often fall asleep on the couch with the laptop either on my tummy or on the top of the couch - to wake up at any time and just jump right in. The only time I put the computer down was to leave for work. THEN I could take lunch at Starbucks or Panera and catch-up on what I missed when I was hitting stores.
I moved back up north - into the postage stamp house and the only place to put the computer was on the kitchen table. It was on constantly. And usually my ass was planted in the kitchen chair, feet propped on the wall (I know, bad etiquette).
Well, since I've moved I've started setting up my office again. I have my desk back - woohoo. I have a couple of comfy chairs and will soon have my printer set up. I've some favorite photo's on the wall, and as soon as I find the rest of my "art work" that will be put in just the perfect spot. It's priceless pieces that could never be replaced. All pictures or notes that have been given to me over the years from the children in my life. I've framed them and use them to decorate my office. It's perfect.
It's a good room - it will be a great room. But you wanna know a secret? I don't spend a lot of time in here. I don't leave my email up all the time, or the blog. I check in during the day - taking a break as it were. But it's nothing compared to how it was.
I get home from work at night and sometimes I almost forget to check in with everyone. Trust me, that is just plain shocking. And it's a very good thing.
I'm glad to see this shift in my focus. I spend more time talking with people I want to talk with. I get to HEAR the stories and ideas first hand - and that is way better than reading them. WAY better. (Well, as long as I don't lose my temper with the phone company again.)
But it's funny to notice the changes. I'm not as stuck to my computer. I actually run errands and do things after work. I've always been one that once I GET home I STAY home. I don't like to leave. But even that's shifting. I actually change out of my work clothes and get comfortable. I do chores. For the 10 years I've been single, when I got home from work or what ever I was done. If I didn't get things done in the morning they just didn't get done.
Most of you are probably shaking your heads and thinking that the BEFORE was the weird. But if you're suddenly single and free - and living your life for your job, that's a very normal way to live. OK, maybe normal is the wrong word, but you get my meaning.
No real reason behind this post other than the self discovery that I'm finally getting what I'd always wanted. A normal life. A balanced life. Now if I could just figure out what that niggly little problem was it would be perfect. And yes, before you ask - I am greedy. I do want it all. And I want it all now. I'm in sales you see, and that's just the way we are. But I can see it all coming into focus. It's all shifting in to place ever so subtly.
Posted by Tammi at January 2, 2006 09:00 AM