November 18, 2005


What a week. Between Cody (or lack there of), the King of Idiots as a boss, shop losing dies, cold and well some other stuff I'd rather not discuss - it's been a hell of a time.

I am just so flippin' glad it's Friday I can't tell you. And I just realized last night that next week is Thanksgiving. Holy Crap. Where has the year gone?!?!!?

Thanksgiving. Last year this time I was preparing for my first solo drive across country to pick up Mama Vi and bring her home to Florida for a month. A month that ended up changing my life in ways I never imagined.

This year my plans are all changed for the holiday weekend. Originally Mama and Dee were going to South Carolina for our annual family get together. I was looking forward to 4 days of cooking, puttering and well, just being. We found out my Aunt has cancer. Again. Everything is on hold. So I'll be heading to South Bend on Thursday morning. But I've managed to "ruin everyone's holiday" by insisting that I return Friday night. I want some time in MY house. With MY friends. I have a turkey I want to cook. I want to make MY idea of Thanksgiving dinner over the weekend. I want MY pumpkin pie. (are you seeing a theme here)

For so many years Thanksgiving was mine. If I choose to go home it was great. But mostly I spent it alone. And I was GREAT with that. I got my Christmas stuff out, cooked, shopped, did whatever my little heart desired. I'm realizing my life is not my own any more.

But please don't take that as whining. I'm not. I'm just settling in. Creaking like a foundation of a house does every now and again.

Anyway - I was just sitting here reflecting on all the changes. I'll probably be doing that a lot over the next few months. It's my nature. Look back to understand now. To learn. To smile.

But Holy Crap! Thanksgiving?!?! Next Week?!?!?

Posted by Tammi at November 18, 2005 07:09 AM

Hey, you're not ruining anyones holiday. They are by depending on you to have fun. A couple of years ago I told my Parents I wasn't going to be doing all the holidays with them anymore. They were upset, but they got over it.

Sometimes you need to start your own traditions.

Posted by: Contagion at November 18, 2005 07:22 AM

I'm with you on the "do MY own thing", but for a buttload of different reasons. Hope your Aunt will be ok. Now, only 30somethin' more shoppin' days left before Christmas. Are not half(roughly) the people on this planet men? Most don't care to have that stat flashed until the day before...

Posted by: RedNeck at November 18, 2005 04:26 PM

So how about we meet in dinner on Friday on your way back home?
I'll be spending T-Day at my mom's and I can drive down to meet you somewhere.

We can make it our T-Day tradition.... :)

Posted by: _Jon at November 20, 2005 10:09 AM