November 12, 2005

He's Gone

Cody has officially left the building.

I took him over to meet the family that was interested in him and they are - wonderful. He was a bit shy at first (believe it or not) but was soon happy as a pig in slop. I could tell that they'll be perfect for him and with their children he's perfect for them.

I left him there. And proceeded to cry the entire drive home.

The little boy said I could come visit when ever I want. I told him "Thank you, but it will hurt my heart too much."

You see - I know this is best for him. And actually best for me too. Except - I'm alone again. Once again, in order to do the right thing I lose. And I'm just selfish enough that I don't like that. Not one little bit.

So I'm going to hunker down on the couch. Cry a bit and then...well I'll have to see what's next. Right now - I just need to cry.

Posted by Tammi at November 12, 2005 04:34 PM

I'm so sorry, Tammi... E-mail me & I'll give you my # if you'd like to talk

Posted by: Princess Cat at November 12, 2005 04:45 PM


Posted by: Teresa at November 12, 2005 05:03 PM

You're not really alone. We're all here.

Posted by: Jim - PRS at November 12, 2005 05:40 PM

Jim said what I was thinking. . .

Sometimes, a good cry is good for the soul. We're here for you, baby girl.


Posted by: Margi at November 13, 2005 01:58 AM

That breaks my heart.

I will have to have my dog stay with my brother while I live with my dad. I'll miss my little girl, but I'll visit her at least once a week on the way back from my day with TheGirl. But it will suck.

Meh sorry for u. :(

Posted by: _Jon at November 13, 2005 06:30 AM

.. if it is best for him, Tammi, then it's all good.... I know it must be hard being in a house by yourself, but you are a strong woman... you don't give yourself enough credit...

Posted by: Eric at November 13, 2005 07:05 AM

It's so very difficult to do what you know is right sometimes, but what a gift you have given both Cody and those kids!

In the meantime, a cat doesn't take up much room, and they can fend for themselves during the day... and landlords usually overlook them. ;)

Posted by: pam at November 13, 2005 07:29 AM

{{hugs}} You have my number. Call!

Posted by: vw bug at November 13, 2005 07:30 AM

Oh sweetheart, I'm so very sorry that it had to come to this. There is no easy way to do whats best, but you've been a very good Mom and put his needs first. I know those boys and that family will be very grateful for your selfless gift. And when the time is right, maybe a cat like Pam said might be the way to go.


Posted by: Lee Ann at November 13, 2005 09:42 AM

Well darlin, I hope hyou stopped at 1 glass of wine, and got always will put things back into place. Oh and Eric is right are STRONG, my friend. Thinking of ya, call if ya need to.

Posted by: armywifetoddlermom at November 13, 2005 09:50 AM

Oh damn. I am so very sorry.

Posted by: Richmond at November 13, 2005 06:12 PM

Honey, do you have any idea how loved you are?


Posted by: Christina at November 13, 2005 08:01 PM

Blech. This sucks. Bad. I'm scrambling for your # and will be calling...

Posted by: Bou at November 13, 2005 09:09 PM


That sucks. Sucks major.

Posted by: Graumagus at November 13, 2005 11:29 PM

It hurts...


Posted by: Contagion at November 14, 2005 07:51 AM

Indeed, as you can see here, you're not alone, even if we can't all touch you at once.

Posted by: Ogre at November 14, 2005 09:23 AM

Ugh. That really, really, really sucks. I've not gotten a dog for that very reason, in fact. I'm terrified that I'd not have the time/room for it and I'd just have to find him another home. Yeeeeesh. Hang in there, Tammi. And as many people have pointed're not alone.

Posted by: zonker at November 14, 2005 11:11 PM

Would it help if I wore a dog collar and let you lead me around on a leash? ;-)

Posted by: Harvey at November 16, 2005 07:34 AM