November 07, 2005

Just Damnit

Well shit. I hate it when things actually balance out. I know - you're probably scratchin' your head over the fact that I, the woman who craves balance, actually typed that out loud. Let me explain.

In many ways I'm very happy with my life. HOWEVER, there are some downsides. Hence the whole balance reference.

I asked my boss for a raise today. Explained how I feel I add value and that, given the additional responsibility I have, they are getting a very real bargain. I also explained that there are different ways to motivate different people. For me, right's ALL about the money. So he went to his boss and pitched it for me. They called in his bosses boss (also his father and the owner). They discussed this situation in the corner office. With the door open. Loudly. I was mortified. (and I don't think I'll be getting any more money.) That Sucks.

Add to that the fact that for several different reasons (more added today) I'm going to have to give Cody up. It's killing me. I do think I found a wonderful family that will love him and work with him - but I really don't want to do this. HOWEVER, I can't find a place to move that will let me keep him. Also - given the above paragraph it looks like I'll be taking a second job. I can't have this sweet, ENERGETIC puppy cooped up for 18 hours a day. It's just not right.

So - I've got good things goin' on. And I got shitty things goin' on. Me and my damn quest for balance. What ever happened to "It's all good!"?

Posted by Tammi at November 7, 2005 06:23 PM

Dang Tammi - I am sorry. Have a big glass of wine and take a hot shower! You never know - maybe those people will change their minds and give you some payola!

Posted by: allicadem at November 7, 2005 06:55 PM


Posted by: vw bug at November 7, 2005 07:25 PM

I'm so sorry, Tammi... will you get visitation rights? Are there kids for him to play with? can always come back home... er, I mean to Florida... ;)
Yeah, I'm kidding; just trying to make you smile. {{{Hugs}}}

Posted by: pam at November 7, 2005 07:37 PM

Oh, honey, bless you.


Posted by: Christina at November 7, 2005 07:45 PM

Oh that so sucks. I'm sorry. GRR.

Posted by: Bou at November 7, 2005 09:48 PM

I figure that tomorrow can be worse, the same, or better. I'm hoping for better.

Posted by: Jim - PRS at November 8, 2005 01:40 AM

I'm with Jim on this one! Lots of good thoughts headed your way.

Posted by: Laughing Wolf at November 8, 2005 05:22 AM

I'm sorry you have to give up Cody... I'm still not over having to give up Bear last april.

Posted by: Contagion at November 8, 2005 08:48 AM

.. hang tough, babe... if anyone can do it, you can..

Posted by: Eric at November 8, 2005 09:58 AM

It's all good.

There. Did that help? ;)

Posted by: Ogre at November 8, 2005 10:26 AM

Oh no. I hope that it works out so you don't have to give Cody up! :( I'll be sending positive thoughts your way........

Posted by: Richmond at November 8, 2005 07:39 PM

Awww... maybe something good will swoop in and keep all these bad things from coming true??

Posted by: Princess Cat at November 8, 2005 07:40 PM

That is terrible, I will send positive thoughts your way.

Your mom or sister couldn't take Cody?

Posted by: Machelle at November 9, 2005 12:28 PM