I have one good thing to say about spam. While cleaning it up I have the chance to go back and read many of my previous posts. Damn - I used to be pretty good.
I had so much to share - stories of my travels, sales, people, restaurants I found, politics. Stuff.
And I got to thinking why I feel so different now. And it hit me...
Back then, while I had a lot going on I had no life. All I did most of the time was work. By the time I started my first blog I was living in Tampa, away from most of my friends and family. Lonely doesn't begin to cover it. I was on the road selling full time and, while having many conversations, all were petty and shallow. I got home to an empty house and it made me crazy.
I am a people person. I thrive on the eye to eye contact. The touch, the subtleness of real conversation. I wasn't getting any of that. So I blogged.
Through the blog I could share the good and bad days. And almost always there was a comment left to make me feel better. I would return from a trip and SOMEONE was glad I was back. Even if just cyberly.
Now - I am starting to have a life. I have interaction with people I enjoy. It's the normalcy I've been craving all of my adult life. So it leaves very little to blog about. (You do realize I don't blog everything - right?!?)
So this is what I'm gonna do. I'm gonna just let things sit for a while. Oh, I'll post when I have something I want to share. I'll absolutely be reading and commenting. But my own writing? Probably slim to none.
It's been grand. I've made some of the best friends I've ever had. I just really want the chance to enjoy them. It's that person to person I've craved. It's a good thing.
Posted by Tammi at October 26, 2005 06:52 PMYa gotta do what ya gotta do; however, you will be missed - even your 'not as exciting' posts are always still entertaining.
Posted by: TNT at October 26, 2005 09:03 PMHey, you still excite the hell out of me. But then I guess a blog doesn't keep one warm at night.
Posted by: Sgt Hook at October 26, 2005 09:38 PMIt's going to be a little strange, but you do what you gotta do...
At least some of us will be able to keep tabs on you! :)
Posted by: That 1 Guy at October 26, 2005 10:51 PMIt will be strange, and missed; but, you must do what is right and best for you!
Posted by: Laughing Wolf at October 27, 2005 04:48 AM"So this is what I'm gonna do?"
Wait, I thought your line was "This is what I'm gonna need YOU to do."
:)
Posted by: Ogre at October 27, 2005 05:44 AMAs long as you still occasionaly show up to a blogmeet for some harassment from me, I can deal with the rest.... maybe.
Posted by: Contagion at October 27, 2005 06:35 AMEspecially not with a peer pressure crack..er...blog-pusher like Harvey around...
I have enjoyed your writing, and will miss reading it, but a girl must do what a girl must do! Enjoy yourself, and have fun!
Posted by: Sarah at October 27, 2005 02:08 PMIn these few short months I have read and gotten to know you...I feel blessed...I know you are doing what is best for you, and what works for you right now. I'm glad you are not lonley anymore. You deserve the world chica...take it...embrasse it...we can wait.
Posted by: Emily at October 27, 2005 11:01 PM*Wahhhhhhh*
*sniff, sniff*
What am I going to do for insperation now?
Posted by: Machelle at October 28, 2005 06:41 AMYou got it right there. Happy people rarely make great art.
I'd rather you be happy in the real world, and I know you'll be back.
Just drop in every once in a while, 'k?
But Blackfive has you recommended! You can't just LEAVE!!! Gettin recognized by Blackfive is like winning the Nobel Prize of blogging!!! You suck and you rule. I will continue to check on you. And I will continue to post pictures of the beach to remind you of your "old & lonely" life. Congrats on getting to your better place. I'm in mine now! But you already knew that....
I'll miss you.