Tammi's World

Whew

Sorry 'bout yesterday. I knew it would really kick me in the gut when they left, but I sure didn't expect the strength of that kick. Damn......sometimes I really hate being so emotional.

But I've done my day of wallowing. Better now. How did I work through it? I watched movies. One after another after another. Not just regular movies....Tammi Feels Sorry For Herself movies. Beauty and the Beast, The Little Mermaid, High Society (LOVE Grace Kelly in this one), just about any musical or Disney movie I could get my hands on. Somethin' about sprawling on the couch singing cheesey songs just soothes my emotions.

So...I'm better now. I got some serious lovin' in with the baby boy. He's grown so much...and talk, damn that boy can talk. I got to sit up late into the night and talk with my cousin and spend quality time with the kids. I'm so proud of them......they are wonderful men and women (but in my heart they will always be "the kids").

Sometimes the emotions just have a life of their own. Sometimes, just little things will trigger a response and it's like being run over by a freight train. The impact is swift and violent. The aftermath is painful. But eventually it's just a dull ache. I'm still a little tender right now, but my humor is back in full swing and you'd never even know that I had a melt down just 24 hours ago.

So, it's time for breakfast then I load the car up and head west. I've got a couple of bags of my favorite spices and yummies and I'm ready to go home. It's time. It's been a bittersweet weekend, that's for sure.

Posted by Tammi at August 21, 2005 07:15 AM