Tammi's World

The Mind Plays Tricks

I am so relieved. I have heard from almost everyone down in Florida - well, my friends and their loved ones any way. You didn't think EVERYONE in Florida called me, did ya? Anyway - they are alright. I have a better feeling of what happened where so I know I can relax. Thank goodness. Bou, as usual, has done a great job keeping everyone up on what was happening in Pensicola. I'm just so glad to hear her family is ok.

I waited to leave Mama's yesterday because they didn't have my car done. When Maggie was ready, I wasn't. Damned D was making landfall and you couldn't pry me away from the TV for anything. It's kind of funny - when they show you what's going on it's no where near what it's like when you're there. And they say the stupidest things. I caught myself a couple of times cursing at the TV and that's a big NO No at Mom's. No cursing. But I got so frustrated.

And you know something else? I felt guilty. I flet guilty because it was a beautiful day here and the worse thing I had to deal with was a car repair bill and Chicago traffic.

Oh, please don't think I WANTED to be there. No thank you - three and a half was more than enough last year. But I felt so helpless, so uninformed. I don't know what I thought I could do if I was there - but I knew it was more than I was doing up here.

Funny how that is isn't it? I don't understand how the mind works sometimes. Hell - half the time I'm just happy when mine works at all. But this is the first time I've ever experienced something like that.

I give thanks that everyone in my life, and those important to my friends are safe. I'm glad it wasn't as bad as it could have been or even what was expected. But I wish I were there to help with the clean up.

Posted by Tammi at July 11, 2005 05:26 AM