Hmmmm.....I'm different. Not just from other people, but from me! I can see changes in my thought process and habits and everything!
No....I'm not turning into a liberal. THAT would not be changing, it would be more like losing my mind!
But I HAVE changed. One thing I noticed is that I'm not watching the news as much. Used to be FOX news played ALL THE TIME on my TV. Hell - in Orlando I had 2x as many TV channels...and still it was FOX New, my laptop and me. Now - my computer is on the kitchen table, I can still see/hear the TV but I spend most of my time watchin' movies (many that I've already seen) or trying to catch up on blogging.
I don't "surf" like I used to. I'll hit some sites and then just shut 'er down. I used to just surf and surf and surf. Not so much now.
Oh - I laugh more. Hell...I got going so bad yesterday at work I thought I'd embarrass myself!!
I'm kinda lettin' myself fall apart physically. When I had breakfast with my best friend last weekend the first thing she noticed is my cut down, unpolished nails. Normally - no matter what my nails are trimmed, finished and polished. I even have a "signature" color. But the move tore them down bad and I haven't done anything about it.
I am finally starting to wear a bit of make-up again. But not much......just enough to keep from scaring the natives.
I now know where the salon I want to use is located so it would be easy to schedule an appointment for a cut and color. Have I? Nope. And I have no idea when I will.
Yesterday I was all but mainlining chocolate. Seriously. Every time the damned phone rang I opened a Hershey Kiss. I've now limited myself to 1/4 of my wardrope. AND....there is no way I can do the gym. I'm already up and gone early enough as it is. Plus - I get home at 6:04 each night. By the time I let Cody out, give him some attention and feed him it's too late to be working out. Oh, I'm walking in the evening. Just not like I should. Plus - I'm eating like a cow!! Man o man o man. THAT has got to be reigned in.
I'm not depressed. No - just the opposite. I'm very content. I'm happy for the most part. And I'll take content over happy any day. I don't know what it is. But there are times I'll just notice something I said or did and wonder where the HELL that come from!
I worry that I'm becoming boring. That's I'm losing my edge. Huh....guess we'll just have to see.
But it's just weird. Most of the time we can't see or feel the changes. I can. Everyday I notice something different. I'm in a very reflective mood. Not bad...just reflective.
So....I guess since I blog most of my thoughts, we'll just see what happens. We'll observe these changes together. I can't promise anything riveting - but I can promise something different. How different is yet to be seen!!
Posted by Tammi at June 2, 2005 07:53 AMI think you're just de-compressing after all the high-level stress you had in Florida.
After you learn to really relax again (and you'll probably do WAY too much of that, just because you CAN), you'll start to feel that sense of creeping dissatisfaction, and you'll ramp back up to a more active lifestyle, and hopefully discover a good place to strike a balance between work, play, and maintenance.
Posted by: Harvey at June 2, 2005 08:21 AMWe don't mind if you go changin'. We love you anyway :-)
Posted by: Sally at June 2, 2005 12:47 PMBoring? You? Are ya' kiddin' me?!!
Posted by: Bou at June 2, 2005 07:48 PM"Yesterday I was all but mainlining chocolate"
I love that line, think I am going to steal it!
"Every time the damned phone rang I opened a Hershey Kiss"
Why is it that the first thing I thought of was Pavlov's dog experiment. I really need to start reading some smut books to get myself back to normal, non-technical thinking.
Posted by: Machelle at June 3, 2005 05:45 AMI'm with Harvey...he got to it before I did.
I understand this reflective feeling...welcome to my life, I can't shut it off!!
Posted by: Sissy at June 3, 2005 09:02 AMHoney you own the word "Different"! (But not in a bad way.)
Posted by: TNT at June 3, 2005 09:42 AM