May 31, 2005


I've never thought I was a vain person. I was taught to take care in my appearance - but that's not pride it's self respect. I work hard, and have had some luck in the past 10 years and enjoy the fruits of my labor. That's not pride, it's fulfillment.

But I've been kidding myself. I've got too much pride. I can see it now. I never realized that what people thought mattered as much as it does. Huh. When the HELL did that happen?!?!?!

Change wrecks havoc on you. Really it does. It's a good thing - most of the time. It helps us to grow, re-evaluate, define.

I usually have a plaque with the first stanza of the Serenity Prayer some where in my house.

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

It takes wisdom and courage to give us serenity in life. That's serenity NOT complacity. Big Difference.

Complacity is just plain not caring. Serenity is accepting and adapting.

And a big part of that is trust. Trusting that you are accpeted. Not Despite your flaws and "challenges" but because of them. That you are taken and loved for who you are - for no other reason.

When you reach that point, you have found serenity. You have beaten pride. You are in a very good place.

Posted by Tammi at May 31, 2005 05:53 AM


Posted by: Bou at May 31, 2005 09:16 PM